it was kinda shitty for me
miss my zulu platoon mates
all my friends
ate my meals alone or wif strangers for the 1st few times
walk back to bunk alone
super emo de
i probably spoke less than 10 sentences on tuesday
anyway the feeling is seriously damn sian
1 day passed s if it was 3
at night was even worse for me
the feeling of loniness SUX!!! no gf to call no 1 to tok to
it became much beta after getting to noe my section mates beta
but still damn sian sia i wanna go back to zulu la!!!
still nid to mug somemore quite a few dictionary thick books
test if fail cannot go home sia
super stress

w8ting for my turn to play MAHJONG!!!
i wanna play mahjong rite now!!!
n im super bored!!!
so this is rather random!!!
ZZZ

SISPEC is whr i will be for my next 3 or 6 months depending on my 2nd posting
really hope i get out of ta place n land in air force or smth like tad
somewhere slack doubt there will be much physical shit in air force rite
lol hoping to get out even b4 i even go in
seriously dreading it
more field camps coming up n the feeling of being soak in sweat
command sch is gonna be much tougher damn it
anyway this 11 days was really a nice break
but NS made me miss sch
i rather be mugging wif my friends
tok cock n gossip around when we are bored
looks at gals
lol feeling lonely
can some1 intro me some nice gals so tad i can call some1 in camp during admin time
i have unknowingly became a big spender
spending almost 300 bucks in 11 days
din really realise it man zzzzzzzzzzzz
mus start saving for my driving lessons le

ok its been a week sincei POPed
guard duty was much beta then i tot thanx to ck
my guard duty buddy =)
had loads to chat
super energetic during 24click
mayb bcos i cant w8 to leave tad freaking island
even sergeant daryl lim said i looked more lively cos everytime i will giv the fuking shag face
hmmm i din managed to turn up for chalet
zzzz din even reply to say tad im not going
zzzz mayb bcos they r jus hi bye friends?
sentosa outing this sat
c if i got any dates lor if not also forget it liao
dun think will get the chance to c them anymore
spent my past few days wanking
ermmmmm... oops
spamming movies
visiting open house
CVD
gym
tennis
swimming (tanning!!! lol freak since when i wanted to be tanned mayb ill get myself white after ns n since my arms r tanned might s well make it my hole body)
lan shop feels gd to be back in my childhood hang out place
stupid zh la dun wanna go out liao make me stone at home for 2day
freaking waste of my time n boring
dun wanna waste any of my time left
damn it i seriously dun wanna go back to camp
need to make new friends again
damn lazy n somemore it wud be hell if im in command sch
i wanna be like kan!!!!
everyday can go home sia

i was the camara man
these big kids....
arent they cute =)

came back from field camp 2 weeks ago
5 days 6 night of torture no bath camo on face 24/7
the feeling was seriously sick
i will hav to go tru all this more than jus once if im to go to command school
i really wonder if its worth it
y dun i jus become a man n get a 8-5 job in SAF
serve n fuck off
but nevertheless i still chose command school whenever theres this expressing interest thingy
mayb peer pressure?
90 percent chose to go command sch
im not really interested in tad kinda life!!!
but im doing the opp!!! quite mad at myself tou!!!!
din blog last week cos it was a really bad week for me
compassionate leave rite after field camp
n i have got guard duty next week
wtf sure damn fucking boring 1
results coming out on fri
i already noe the outcom
my results gonna suck big time
im already preparing the book "failing forward" to read during guard duty even b4 i get the results
hai.....
anyway POP soon le
trying not to think too much